I don’t have it down
Yet I pretend I do
I think it’s still about me
While paying lip service to you
You’ve told me, scolded me, held me, changed me
Yet not enough
I’m still lying, crying, whining
Choking on the very word you gave me
Denying you while trying to
Be something you didn’t design me to be
Where can I go? Where should I run?
But to you
Who should I cry out to?
Who will forgive? Restore? Redeem? Restart?
But you
Yes you and you alone
Yes you and you alone
Yes you
You
Alone
I don’t have it down
I never have. I never will.
Because of you I don’t need to.
Let me see, please let me see
You were
Are
Will be
Forever
Enough